Ex Model, "Beauty Comes From Within"

by - Saturday, September 12, 2015

I have always loved the camera and still do. I took great pleasure in my modelling days and building my portfolio. I made sure I was working with the right people i.e. those photographers with brilliant portfolios and great editing skills and mingled with those in the industry.

My parents always told me not to do glamour modelling, or anything too immodest so I listened. I knew that was where the money was at (including fashion) but I had no desire to strip to get known. I have seen some models who were modelling at the time that I was, that have now become Christians. Unfortunately, all you need to do is to Google image their name and those degrading pictures come up. So I am really grateful that I did not go down that route.

I also saw some models that started out with the mentality that I had, as time went on the clothes became less and less. This was down to trying to impress and become more noticeable.

As time went on I noticed my career as a model was not progressing. Mind you, I was doing this whilst at university and definitely spent more money than I earned. I was not getting paid how I would have liked to and some of it was just a waste of time. I spent a lot of money on a website, I went to some video shoots and spent a whole day there; sometimes the video did not even get released; if it did I hardly saw myself in it. I began to pray in around my early 20s on this. I asked God if he really wanted me to do this, I was desperate to know whether this was God’s plan for my life and I desperately searched the Bible to see if I was doing something wrong. There is nothing wrong with taking pictures of course but what was my intention behind it?

First of all, I really enjoyed taking pictures. I came to the conclusion that I did not have to model in order to enjoy taking pictures; I could simply enjoy taking pictures! Secondly, I felt that I was seeking approval from people in the industry to work with me or to make my portfolio amazing to get noticed. It was more about pleasing/impressing people and I noticed that this was all meaningless.

[Galatians 1:10] Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

I was struggling to understand my style in modelling and was trying new things. I initially thought of myself as a fashion model. Although I was slim, I wasn’t skinny or tall enough. Then I got into beauty modelling which focuses on the face. That was great, but I couldn’t seem to get much work from that.

Vanity was another big issue. It was like I was in competition with other models and I was just vain and conceited, thinking my outside appearance would get me anywhere when I was broken within. Jesus makes it very clear that beauty starts from within:

[1 Peter 3-4] Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewellery or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

Just to clarify, this does not mean that we are not allowed to adorn ourselves as onto the Lord. But as long as our beauty starts from within the heart, no matter what we wear, that beauty will be present. So it is important that we understand this and continue to work on our characters consistently.

It wasn’t all bad though. I was able to come out of my shell and express myself through pictures, I was able to be artistic and come up with different themes for my pictures. And its all good now, because I can do all those things better with my You Tube channel. I have a camera professional enough to make that happen. I was also left with many beautiful pictures as you can see.

The below video was released on TV. I was happy and excited and felt that I had achieved something. Well I guess I had in a sense but it was not everything. They showed my face a fair amount of times as you will see. Some of the models there were very catty and jealous. Some of us overheard some of the things they were saying; pretty much looking down on us. The singer was very lustful, just the type that I would not want to be left alone in a room with. So to be honest, I realised around the age of 22, that this was not the type of environment that I want to be in. I knew that these personalities would not help me in my Christian walk, because it was all about them which takes the attention to what we really should be focused on, the Cross.

So, my passion to model started in my early teens as many told me that I had what it takes. I started modelling around the age of 18 and ended it at 22. I have noted a few things:

·      Many businesses find it hard to pay models and expect them to be grateful that they are getting a free picture. After a while, it is only fair that one is compensated for their work.
·      Many see models as objects, desperate to find work or be seen in a music video.
·      Many modelling agencies will exploit your passion for modelling and make it a business for themselves.
·      Seek Jesus in all that you do, if you are not at peace with it then don’t do it!
·      I have met many professional make up artists, models and photographers that I am glad to have met and learnt something from.

·      People will take advantage if they can so shine your eyes and be ready.

I hope this inspires someone. God bless.

Rosemary <3

You May Also Like


  1. Great story! Thanks for sharing. I pray this will make many think before entering such an industry!